You know that feeling of abandonment, loneliness, isolation and fear of rejection.. I’m having it so much at the moment, I’m staying with my parents so they want me to come out and about and see their friends and things. I just don’t want to be with people. I hate myself so much.. can’t stand to look in the mirror. I look back on old photos of myself and I think Jesus i thought I was fat then and now look at me.
Why do we have this awful ache inside that we just don’t want to be here anymore. Who did this? Who made this awful disease? People say mental health doesn’t exists, that it’s all in our heads.. YEAH it is in my head, deep down in there, buried and not planning on leaving anytime soon
It sickens me