What i’d tell you if i had one last chance…

So i lost my friend Joel to suicide this week and as well as mourning his loss, my brain just couldnt process that he wasnt going to come back.. I realized i had so many things i wanted to say, things to ask and conversations i wanted with him. If i had one last chance, … Continue reading What i’d tell you if i had one last chance…

Pain, i’m feeling fire

My brother, my best friend, hes hurting right now.. that means im hurting too. He has a problem with drugs and alcohol and he has relapsed a few times and now again.. It fucking hurts me and my family but i know what addiction is like and i know that he cannot help it, its … Continue reading Pain, i’m feeling fire

Have you heard of the 2 Wolves?

When I was in 'crisis' back in April time, the crisis team came out to me and i met someone (lets call him Greg) who really inspired me to use DBT skills to balance out my mental illness. He used different DBT skills with me each day, the first day he would teach me one … Continue reading Have you heard of the 2 Wolves?

Psychosis, delusions and hallucinations..

Lying in bed, i'm small, young. I can't remember how old i was, all i know is that i had forever friends bedding, wallpaper and matching lamps. I have a small window up against my bed with a sill, so the curtains brush my duvet. I sleep with the light on, because im petrified of … Continue reading Psychosis, delusions and hallucinations..

When you just can’t explain whats wrong

Its so annoying i always start my blog posts with 'so', its starting to get on my nerves, anyyyyyway I havent been feeling good just this past day, my friend has been here from the UK which has been lovely but it still doesnt mean my mental health sits on the back burner like 'hey … Continue reading When you just can’t explain whats wrong

When we need a safe place: Tips to create a space for you to go

(Moana is one of my safe films at the moment, makes me feel relaxed) Everyone has their place to go when they're feeling anxious, panicky or just not feeling well within their mental health. So i just wanted to write some tips for people who struggle to find somewhere that they can go to and … Continue reading When we need a safe place: Tips to create a space for you to go

Beauty Blog: Zo Skin Health by Zein Obagi MD Skincare Routine

So ive been using these products for about 6 months now, so before and after pictures are a bit hard to create because my skin is so different from what it used to be. My skin was bumpy, with breakouts on my cheeks, chin and forehead. When i put make up on, the bumps were … Continue reading Beauty Blog: Zo Skin Health by Zein Obagi MD Skincare Routine

Achuluophobia: The eternal stretch of nothingness

Are you afraid of the dark? Well we are not alone, because i am petrified and so are 11% of the public. So at least we aren't just the only ones being 'scaredy cats'. Ever since i was little i've been so frightened of what looms in the unknown black space of darkness. I hated … Continue reading Achuluophobia: The eternal stretch of nothingness

Santa: What the adult me wants

Last night me and my mum put out a piece of paper and pencil for my little one to make her own christmas list for Santa, shes only young so im not sure she even understands but she was still excitedly sat drawing circles around the page. It got me thinking about my old letters … Continue reading Santa: What the adult me wants