Okay so it's the first time in a while I've felt anything like this.. each day I wake up like normal.. take my tablets and hope I can stay functional If not then I take my crisis meds, I can take these up to three times a day, that's if I need them, in case … Continue reading What’s this feeling?
So i lost my friend Joel to suicide this week and as well as mourning his loss, my brain just couldnt process that he wasnt going to come back.. I realized i had so many things i wanted to say, things to ask and conversations i wanted with him. If i had one last chance, … Continue reading What i’d tell you if i had one last chance…
If you don't understand mental health, if you want to grasp a tiny slither of the excruciating subconscious torture that engulfs a person with a mental health illness, please, slip into the formidable little world that is mental illness. Imagine watching everyone around you succeed, grow and strive in their lives and no matter how … Continue reading The ‘Invisibility Cloak’ Lifted: Please read this if you don’t understand mental health
Lying in bed, i'm small, young. I can't remember how old i was, all i know is that i had forever friends bedding, wallpaper and matching lamps. I have a small window up against my bed with a sill, so the curtains brush my duvet. I sleep with the light on, because im petrified of … Continue reading Psychosis, delusions and hallucinations..
In my head.. I have not been part of the world for the last 72 hours. Probably since about 6 o'clock christmas day. I was sat at the dinner table with all my parents friends, parents sat next to me and my little girl by my side and i just thought 'enough now'. THATS … Continue reading Dissociating: Just another symptom
So i've been scrolling through twitter all day seeing posts about 25 year old Pete Davidson from New York, who took to instagram to tell the world 'he no longer wanted to be on this earth anymore'. The young comedian who has been diagnosed with BPD in the past has been open about his mental … Continue reading Pete Davidson: Regretting Reaching Out?