Now, I'm not going to say I'm perfect and when I'm anxious I go into my CBD or DBT mode and start doing strategies straight out of my NHS booklet.. sometimes I drink, eat too much, not eat enough, sleep too much and smoke too much.. BUT I do try to cope with my anxiety … Continue reading My Anxiety Coping Methods
So i've been tindering tonight, just chatting to some boyos. Then i got to thinking, thinking about the dates ive been on in the past. So some boys can be lovely at the end of the night, nice goodnight kiss and walks me to the door.. but i have had other experiences where the boy … Continue reading What is expected of us on a date?
you stole my heart, when we were just kids and didnt even know what love was we wrestled and playfought, i suppose it was flirting as we grew up we always snuck out.. 6 hour cinema dates, watching twighlight on repeat being seas apart didnt effect us, we told eachother everyday we loved eachother, in … Continue reading JIM
Okay so it's the first time in a while I've felt anything like this.. each day I wake up like normal.. take my tablets and hope I can stay functional If not then I take my crisis meds, I can take these up to three times a day, that's if I need them, in case … Continue reading What’s this feeling?
So i lost my friend Joel to suicide this week and as well as mourning his loss, my brain just couldnt process that he wasnt going to come back.. I realized i had so many things i wanted to say, things to ask and conversations i wanted with him. If i had one last chance, … Continue reading What i’d tell you if i had one last chance…
My brother, my best friend, hes hurting right now.. that means im hurting too. He has a problem with drugs and alcohol and he has relapsed a few times and now again.. It fucking hurts me and my family but i know what addiction is like and i know that he cannot help it, its … Continue reading Pain, i’m feeling fire
When I was in 'crisis' back in April time, the crisis team came out to me and i met someone (lets call him Greg) who really inspired me to use DBT skills to balance out my mental illness. He used different DBT skills with me each day, the first day he would teach me one … Continue reading Have you heard of the 2 Wolves?
If you don't understand mental health, if you want to grasp a tiny slither of the excruciating subconscious torture that engulfs a person with a mental health illness, please, slip into the formidable little world that is mental illness. Imagine watching everyone around you succeed, grow and strive in their lives and no matter how … Continue reading The ‘Invisibility Cloak’ Lifted: Please read this if you don’t understand mental health
Lying in bed, i'm small, young. I can't remember how old i was, all i know is that i had forever friends bedding, wallpaper and matching lamps. I have a small window up against my bed with a sill, so the curtains brush my duvet. I sleep with the light on, because im petrified of … Continue reading Psychosis, delusions and hallucinations..
Its so annoying i always start my blog posts with 'so', its starting to get on my nerves, anyyyyyway I havent been feeling good just this past day, my friend has been here from the UK which has been lovely but it still doesnt mean my mental health sits on the back burner like 'hey … Continue reading When you just can’t explain whats wrong